We made it through the first week.

Dear Katie,
You are napping right now so I thought I would write a quick post. Well you and I both made it through my first week back to work in one piece. In fact, you were pretty much oblivious. I however, missed you all day everyday. I would call MiMi during the day to check on you. She would put you on the phone and you'd babble at me, which made me happy and sad all at the same time.

In a way I feel better now that I'm back at work. It has provided me a sense of normalcy, and it's helping us get you into some kind of a routine. I'm actually sleepig more than I was because daddy has been taking the first night shift with you (From 9pm-2:30) and there has actually been two nights this week that he took the entire night shift! So mommy got like 7-8 hours of sleep! Holy cow! :) As much as I miss you, being back at work is for the moment making me calmer because I know that your daddy and I will be able to provide for you. So there is a sense of pride in what I'm doing that I didn't have before. I also appreciate our nightly wake ups together a lot more than before. Since I don't see you all day, I kind of enjoy our little feeding times together- and snuggling you until you fall back to sleep. Also because I know this is not the job I will have forever, at least for the moment, I'm less stressed about it because I just don't care as much. But I do miss you like crazy. You are growing so fast. I don't want to miss out. You mean the world to me! You've started smiling a lot this week, so that's been a blast to talk to you and have you look up at me with the biggest most beautiful toothless smile. You my dear are gonna be a knock out when you get older. :)

Daddy and I picked up a new toy for you this weekend (Something that my going back to work has allowed us to do). It sings at you, and you love it! When we press the button to make noise, you wiggle and smile and lock eyes with the toy. The best part is, daddy and I enjoy playing with it almost as much as you do! Everytime you press the button it plays a note. Depending on how fast you press it, that affects how fast or slow the song is. Yours sings "Oh where, oh where has my little dog gone" which we thought was pretty appropriate in our house. :)

Anyway, I guess the point of this letter was to let you know that daddy and I are working hard for you. And that you did great with MiMi all week. I still wish that I could be the one with you, but I know when you are older and have your own babies that you will also understand my desire to provide for you.

You are starting to wake up so I guess I will go for now.

I love you with all my heart baby girl,
Momma