And away we go...

I am 25 years old and happily married to the love of my life. We have decided to try and start a family. Sounds easy right? lol. Then you don't know me or my obsessive nature. I am convinced the dreaded 2 week wait will in fact kill me, as I obsess to the point of not being able to think of anything else. But.... before we go on.


How I knew I wanted children. I have wanted children for as long as I can remember. In fact, I think I remember being the only broody 12 year old on the planet. lol. I have always been interested in women and pregnancy. Fascinated by the changes in the body that create that little person.

In fact, it honestly feels as if everything I have ever done was for my non-existent, but someday maybe, children. I know that sounds weird, but its the truth. I've always tried to live "right" (what is that anyway?), and make decisions that would put me in a good situation to be a mother. I once had a girl I went to highschool with tell me I was already a mother even if my children weren't on earth yet. She was a very religious person, something I can't really claim to be, but somehow it brought me comfort.

Before I met my husband I was in a relationship for nearly 4 years. I was crazy about him, and he was soooo wrong for me. It was my desire for children that finally gave me the strength to leave him. The realization that all of his hangups, would harm my future children. That was not the life I wanted for them. And so... I left him. Scared and lost but knowing it was the right thing.

Then I met the man that would be my future husband. Let me tell you, this man is amazing. He is kind, and warm, and funny. He is patient, and confident, and personable. He works hard, and is all about his family. In other words, he is the right man for me. A wonderful, cherished man.

When I met him, I knew not only did he make me happier than I had ever been, but I knew he would make an amazing father. His desire for a family almost matched mine! But... like me, he wanted to do it right and provide the best life for his kids possible. So while, we would have been happy to have kids right away. We decided to wait and try to better prepare ourselves.

We were married in April of 2009. It was in January of 2010 that we decided we would start trying for a family. And so, as a means of an outlet and hopefully a way to in someway minimize my obsessing, and maybe keep a record for prosperity, I decided to chronicle the journey in this blog.

And here we go...